Monday, November 8, 2010

the pathway of my dreams

This is me CURRENTLY.

I am so dead meat laa people. I don't even started yet any inch of the book for my final examination this Thursday. Damn it aaaarrgghhh. It's not that I don't even try, I did tried, but things just don't work out. Am I going to be crazy? Last night I even thinking of quitting my studies. Wawa please don't do that stupid dumb dumb action. There's only one semester left to graduate, amin amin. This financial subject makes me want to quit, that's super hard right, I mean like I won't despair without any reasonable causes. If I do have the reason, I'll try all my best to stand by and fight back. But this finance just couldn't hold me anymore. Relax babe, chill chill.. soothing down.. inhale.. exhale.. inhale.. exhale...

I can't wait for this moment to be my reality.

I am so excited to finish my studies. ouh, cepatlah habis pleash! Can't wait to get out from this. I want to study another thing, way different from this in my degree. I hoping that my parents are going to approve me with my decision.. but there's a lot of time to talk about? A lot, am I sure bout it? aaarrgghhh. Next semester is my final semester, where we should apply for our degree in advance. I don't want to do business anymore or anything like it. Financing, Human Resource and so on. It's just tiring my mind I thing. I want to do something that occurs outside the room. It's not like that I want to take Engineering or something like that, I just want to enjoy my future job.

Love the work dude!

When I enjoy my job, I won't be lazy. Then my productivity of work quality for sure is the best. Then this will guarantee one of my life happiness for sure. wow, I think that much huh? sorry guys, you must think my thoughts are too far to think of right. what to do, this is me - Wawa Tqa. I do dream of a life full of happiness, where I will have a job I love, a family that supports me, a husband that will always be my side, some babies that will make me laugh & cry :') Actually, I can't wait to get into marriage life though, crazee right? hahaa, I just can't resist the world full of sinful things but awesome much. aaarrgghhh, sigh*


Cuddle is fun & loveable

A happy family is what I'm dream of.

letters to my boo :


I love you yayang, although there's nothing yet between us but our care of each other makes me feel so blissful ♥ ♥ ♥ . I am happy that you accompany my life. although sometimes you make me feel crabby towards you but somehow I am more passionate with you. You are lucky okay! I miss you everyday, everytime & every seconds to be exact. If only we be together, I can't bear to be apart with you. Nevermind, I'll be tolerant. Bye love :D
Lots of ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥,
your baby :)

Sunday, November 7, 2010

My Mr. X

Have you ever wondered somebody that is so pigheaded turns into mellow fella ? ouh I just did not imagine, I am the reason that person turned like that. Aauuww, I am so exhilarated bout this. hehee,.

I've known Mr. X since years go by. but, not exactly closed just as acquaintance. But, early this year we've made personal contact. Not just as some people I knew, but as a friend :) Truthfully because I need somebody to accompany me, yeah I don't like being alone. Never ever does. As I were saying, when I am being friends with someone, I trully am giving out my best as your friends. Plus, I like to say things out straight to Mr. X, such as what I want, how I want things to be, small matters that I dislikes and all itsy bitsy stuff. Sometimes when Mr. X called I am just fooling and drooling around.. wasting his time - hahhaaha.

But I didn't realised yet at that moment that I've made Mr. X smiled.. I even didn't realised that he's falling for me, ouh how foolish am I. How could I tell as my heart is not there with him because I am looking without notice that he's just there right by my side. Maybe because when the first time I've known he's kinda cold hearted type of person until I didn't realised he've kept a warm spot in his little small heart with spacious to grow more. yes I know, I've made you smiled & you too made me smiled..

just like the song 'Smile' by Uncle Kracker.

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make smile

isn't there resemblance in my love story?
Opsie daisy I've said it out.
This is how it starts and I hope it's eternal.
Let's hope for the best, I'll write in for whatever happens in the future. So stay awaits for more upcoming stories :)

I heart you Mr. X, you makes my heart jump out of joy.

serabot kepala otak ku - BIOL

hye people.

arini entah kenapa, kepala otak runsing je. nak study mmg laa nak. tp ape pasal tak tau tak mula mula. I don't even know how to start it. gilaa kan, gila gilaa gilaaa! I rasa mcm nak berenti suma bende yg terjadi kt dunia ni. seriusly :(

sometimes I felt so lonely, I don't know why this happen. yeah, I supposed life without love could work out. mmg work out pon, tapi mcm tak tahan laa. dulu I thought I have friends for life, life laa sgt. bukannye my friends tak best, tp everybody have their own thoughts. tapi kan, kenapa perlu ade kawan yang buat cerita pasal kawan sendiri huh? it makes me felt sad..

for me, friends are priority. but somehow I can't hang around and stick with them. or they're the one that can accept me. hm, ape yg I cakapkan ni?? serabot mental & jiwa. I sincerely being friends with everbody, but last last I yg kena teruk. Just to save your butt, you should not reveal others secret or worst make stories of others to save yourselves. btw, ape yg I tuliskan ni takde nak tuju kat sape2.. because I experienced this since a long time ago. and I don't want to mind sbb it's just gonna hurts.

when friends are gone, you turn to your love ones. well at least I did like that (bukannya my love tak penting okay). the problem is, the person that I thought they were my love actually are not. sounds super pathetic kan? yeah I know we're not engaged or something, but at least there's a path towards it. tak, tak you just shove it off. how wonderful & perfect with the condition of somebody with nobody to rely on. just superb marvelous ( betoi ka ape I eja ni? ) kenapa laa I asyik mengeluh nieh..

study study study? sumpah angin study tak mau lalu kat I. hujan lebat, banjir suma dah lalu dah.. angin belajaq ni tak mai mai lagi.. ciisstt. please laa, next subjek is so hard and I donno hell out of anything. pleash :( I got two more papers to gooo!!

p/s : please ignore ape ke bende yg I tuliskan nieyh. certain things tu entah betol ke tak I dok ckpkan, serabot kepala laa! so don't talk shyte. hahaha. have a nice day :)

Friday, November 5, 2010

Heart Matters

I want to be loved by others,
I want to have a serius relationship,
I want to be cared by,
but somehow, I'm not ready yet.
Just be patient, let my heart rest from the past pain.

-bubu chacha-

my aqmar :)

this is my super neighbour & my precious hometown friend.
nurul aqmar. i LOVE her okeyh.

dear my syg,
I hope our friendship will be everlasting, without anymore obstacle. aku syg kaw tau~
You are my sunshine when I'm back in our hometown, I luff to go out with, however busy schedule always envy us kn? huhuu, nvm. we are super tough soul babes! we'll try to find a way to be together for once ;) ouh, so less oh me. hahaa,, kiddin' yunk, I want u to know, when good or bad times, am oweyx here for you syg. tell me everything, as we have the same heart & soul... this is super awesome right? =) I'll promise honey that there'll be one moment where we escape from our hectic life and go somewhere that we called wild & fun for us. but not doing some stupid stuff, we'll go for some awesome time! hhhheeeellllllllllllllllllllllllllll yyyyyeeeeaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!

btw, protect our friendship may no one can come & ruin it, not even for some dimpwit fella or some sucker boys.. love ya till end my friend ;)


I found this video posted in somebody's facebook.

Sounds catchy & cute.


hope you guys ENJOY it :)


hey hoo!
hehee. the last post I wrote was after I finished my first paper ayte.
then I get busy with my 2nd & 3rd final examination paper.
well, I swear am too busy because my final is on
Saturday & Sunday.

no gap huh? ;(
well, I struggled, I've cried & and I'm done with those papers :)
so hope for the best, with my crossed fingers.
please pass with beautiful rainbow colours.. like softener Daia. hahaa.

oh my God,
am totally to blurp out to others,
I am currently studying in Perlis Indera Kayangan.
and on the beautiful date,

OI NOVEMBER 2010 - 011110 ( nice right?)
* so not on kayangan land all ready. hahaa.

It all starts on the monday evening, where the water level rises.
The river flows become stronger and stonger...
The water reach until the height of knee and certain places until the chest..
and more than that..
Lots of students that stays outside the campus are being transferred into the campus territory.
This is because my campus doesn't flood. high mainland :)
However, we did not realises that the water supply is gonna run out.
Therefore on monday we had some problem. It's actually kinda of major problemo.

p/s : since it starts to heavy flood. all vehicles can't move. so majority people move from one place to another by lorries, tracks, jip or boat from POLICE, PALAPES & FIREFIGHTERS.

02 NOVEMBER 2010 - 021110
* when the problem came.. huhuu.

Ouh today I got my 4th paper :) at noon.
So I wake up, and start to study - superb last minute species ;p
Then suddenly around 12, I overheard rumours that the water is gonna run out.
Damn it, I need to wash the hair people, so I rush & have my shower.
Aaaauuuww, the water feels so good, as if I am having fun at some cool & cold waterfall :)
Then, I went for my examination, and after I finished my paper.
The water is out already. Besides that, the food supply are also out since afternoon.
This is because yesterday 'banjir' right? So there is no supply of raw food to cook & the cook himself have some difficulties to come to the canteen..
It's like a survivor programme ouh, people are fighting over food. not fighting literally laa.
they just buy all the food for their storage, such as maggie mee, buns, biscuits and mineral water for drinking.

p/s : thank you God, I bought Curry Maggie Mee the day before, fuh.. (sigh)

03 NOVEMBER 2010 - 031110
* thank you to 'pakcik' tractor from delivering those water.

Starting today is where everybody feel the presence of no-water. huahuahauhaua :(( sobbing*
so pathetic right? hurm, but thank you, thank you to Unit Ladang for preparing the water delivery. every hour 'pakcik' tractor came to deliver ( every hour? kind of laa )
Can you guys imagine like hundreds of girls, struggling to receive water from 'pakcik'.. and that cute mister (he's elderly okayh) just could not resist smiling at these ladies attitudes.
ouh ya, the whole day there is no rain at all.
At night I went to karaoke with some friends. yeah, I can died of boredness kot..
Btw, I had a blast, relieved that I can sing after a while :)

p/s : that night, I manage to wash 8 t-shirts & 2 panties with only one pail :) awesome kan? yeah!

04 NOVEMBER 2010 - 041110
* attitudes & cash money are gone.

The ATM machine in my campus ran out of cash money, oh nooo!! the food is already limited,
but when there is no money how will the students especially me who wants to buy stuff & things.. huhuuuu.
Besides that, people attitude are turning into water cannibal you know! people really fight for water today, I meant literally rushed, fight, cut in the queu and many more.
just to get water today, well to my observation.. this occurs maybe because 'pakcik' tractor
doesn't supply the water like he did yesterday. so people are struggling to get the water.
well, everbody gets their water, good :)
at mignight, suddenly i heard capten voice, he's mad at some bunch of girls.. wasting the water.
or sort of like that, but am sure it is about the water issue.
see, how "WATER CANNIBAL" are they? heehehehee.

p/s : It is the same faces wo struggle to get the water everytime, EVERYTIME the water tractor came. hey, think of others too okay, I don't get why those people used lots of water, but actually they can save & use less. please note that water are limited. let othes get their share too.

05 NOVEMBER 2010 -051110
* bless for the water.

Early this morning, it shows that there is sign of the water is back in business, yyyiippeee yeay!
Today I can shampoo my hair & have a splendid shower, ouh yeah!!
but 'berebut jugak' because the water just getting pump in, people have started to use it.
"haih, bawak bersabaq sket leh tak?"
there's nothing much happen today, just that the water, food & supply is okay now.
just that cash money are not available in my campus. therefore, in order withdraw your money,
you'll need to wait for the campus bus ride to Arau to withdraw some money.

p/s : today seems like the day is turning into normal, please stay normal like this Arau.

That's all from me.